Motivation is something you need to help yourself and find something !!! For me there are days that I am soo motivated and trying to get things done and I feel like I failed. I guess I wear my heart on the sleeve because I am so hard on myself. But now my motivation is my wife and my kids who I want to succeed because they are now my everything as I am learning here as a father.

One thing you can lose focus or motivation, that is thing fear lack of stuff, negativity. One thing for me is always fear, I am always afraid did I make the best choice with friends or family. I feel like sometimes I might not be a great father or husband, but I am making better choices to be more with the family, Like setting plans with them spend more time with everyone and also trying to reach out to people to hang out to be more me. Something that I am motivated to do is become more the old Gomez who loved hanging out with friends and family !!! But sometimes I am wondering there are relationships that were damaged but I hope they understand that I am fully sorry. Fear is my biggest thing and I dont think it will ever change at all.

One thing to getting better is talking to someone like therapy, yes I do go and let me tell you it helps a lot because I feel better and voicing out concerns that are in my life. But motivation now is more then ever to do a lot better in everything I am doing including my health..

The one thing everyone should say is I CAN DO IT !!! the word can’t shouldn’t be in anyones vocabulary, its important to never give up baby steps is the best way accomplish one thing at a time make a sheet for you need to do, but remember space things out to help yourself.

Sometimes I do ramble but its my life experiences that might just help one person I do have problems I am not perfect but damn at least I am trying, I am motivated with my family and that’s something to strive for !!!